second hand anger, second time around, I'm making my rounds and I'm starting with you. I am so so angry at you because I feel as though your abandoning me and you're leaving me and I'm having such a hard time right now and I'm sorry, but i needed you to be there for me i needed you and you don't notice and you never call me back even though you always say you will and Its so hard because I don't feel justified in anger, but I'm so angry at you you're not cruel, just indifferent and you've always been the one who notices when I'm sad and no one notices. I'm so lonely, i'm so tired and I feel so selfish for wanting you to love me still, because I miss you and I need you. you're never there. You always leave halfway through my greeting because you care less for me, because you care more and you never notice anyone else and I miss you, but I feel so selfish because I want you to be happy and I don't want to ruin it for you, but I'm trying so hard and I miss you so so much and you don't know it. Because you don't listen anymore I think becuase you're afraid you'll hear me and you'll see that you're being selfish. I think you know that and you don't want to think about it but this is hurting me so much Because despite the fact that I love you, despite the fact that I would trust you with my life every time you disapoint me, you lie-- or if you tell the truth, I can't tell anymore and I feel like you're always, always going to leave me for him. | 